Post 10: Top 100

I’ve finished my top 100 and have posted it. Go read it if you’d like.

Post 6: I wish…

I wish I could take away the guilt she feels inside. The embarrasment she hides. I wish I could make her believe that it will be okay, that she will make it through this. I don’t know what else to say to comfort her except that I love her unconditionally and no matter what she does, says or thinks will ever change that. I want her to know that I know exactly what she’s going through. I’ve done what she did, I’ve been where she was, I know how it feels the next day when you “sober” up and you realize what happened. The shame, the embarrasment, the awkwardness…feeling like everyone knows your secret. That everyone is staring right into your soul like they are watching a movie about your mistake. The looks of shock and awe come across their faces as they witness the event.

To Babe,
I want you to know that I love you like a little sister maybe even like a daughter. My love for you is unconditional and nothing you do will ever change that, ever. I promise you. Your secret is safe with me. Nobody will ever know. I will take it to my grave. I love you, Babe. Don’t ever forget that.

– j.

Post 4: Confessions

I am now about to confess something that for the longest time I was ashamed to admit. So here it goes. I enjoy watching One Tree Hill. Yes I know it’s shocking. Why do you think it took me so long to confess? Now I know most of you who are reading this do not know me outside the blogger world, but for those of you who do know me outside the blogger world it came as a huge shock. So if you are feeling light-headed, dizzy, faint or are having difficulty breathing please seek medical help immedietly.

I actually look forward to finding out what will happen to Brooke, Peyton, Hailey, Lucas, and Nathan in the next episode. I don’t know how it happen. Perhaps it was out of complete boredom or maybe it was that there was nothing else on. Or maybe, I actually really like the show. There. I said it. I like OTH. Jess, Aimee…you can laugh at me now and say “We told you you’d like it”!

Sadly, I’ve missed the first 3, 4 or 5 seasons (due to the fact that I would rather laugh at my friends in college while they watched it than watch it myself) and so I don’t even know what season I’m watching. The latest episode I watched was the episode where Brooke gets beaten up by some guy who steals her latest designs. I believe it was last seasons because Hailey and Nathans kid is now almost 5 or something. I’ve done a little research on Wikipedia (which is probably the most amazing website out there) to catch up on what I’ve missed. And I just realized that Soap Net is now showing re-runs from the first season. So I’m slowly catching up. Which is weird because I started watching the show after Brooke, Peyton and Hailey became BFF (which I found out in todays season 1 episode they haven’t always been BFF), after Lucas and Nathan became buddies and brothers and after Hailey and Nathan got married and had James Lucas Scott, aka Jaime (which I also found out in a previous season 1 episode, they used to hate each other and Hailey was BFF with Lucas).

So as you can see from my in depth research on OTH in this post, I’m quite into the show. Does that make me a dork? Or a drama loving girly girl? I don’t know. Maybe it does, or maybe I’m finally accepting my inner drama-loving girly girl I’ve kept hidden for years due to the fact that I feared being seen as a dumb, no-brained girl who loves drama so much she watches shows that are dripping in it. Or maybe it’s due to the fact that I have zero drama in my life and perhaps I need a little to keep me going.

Well whatever the reason is I do know that I look forward to curling up in my comfy La-z-boy recliner with a warm blanket surrounded by my friends, Brooke, Peyton, Hailey, Lucas and Nathan and watching their never ending drama filled lives.